It’s his Birthday today.
He’s 18… One of THE worst ages to be in Australia. You can legally do anything now. And I’m going to hate seeing him do that -.-
Why can’t he just be mine already? What do I have to do to make him fall in love with me?
IT’S NOT FAIR!
I’m not a slut. I don’t even go out places. I see different guys occasionally but I don’t have sex with every single one of them.
He asks me ALL the times we see each other: “who’s the last person you had sex with?” when I tell him “you.” he’s surprised…
I don’t lie, but I don’t need to lie to him, I just want him to see that I’m close to perfect for him.
But I guess the good suffer?
I’d be jealous too, but they are mine. (:
it’s not necessarily a strange yet shock of unexpected coincidence, but why is it that all of a sudden when i’m all alone, maybe finding some guy to fool around with yet at the same time, trying to get fucked and possibly see if a guy wants to become mine because i’m that depressed i won’t find a decent guy, he all of a sudden comes along…? we work together, he gives me lifts home, tends to think i could be more than just another girl he talks too, and may even have feelings for me, not just for the sex, but for the fact that I AM a nice girl? why did he come along all before christmas and all before new years and all before 2012 and before i was arranging plans to go see Cory? why? i don’t intend to make this sound as in it’s a bad thing, but i can’t help but think cupid and fate and god has fixed everything all in the right timing… practically!
there’s this odd yet most unimaginable feeling that i get when i’m with him and i guess just seeing his face. he’s been gone for the past 7 days without contacting me, messaging nor facebook and i can’t help but miss him terribly. i even bought him a welcome home present/s (just a little few things) *grape soda, tropical punch, a ding dong and twinkie and even a chocolate rose* i even bought big letters ” S, &, W ” and also a big red heart. his christmas present was better than that but it’s just a little something something to show i was thinking of him while he was gone…
it’s really hard to explain, yet it’s gone so fast that it feels like i’ve been with him forever. we feel so comfortable around each other, it’s insane of how i come to realize that two people can actually fall in love so quickly. judge me if you must, yet no-one reallys actually does know me and therefor you just judged a book by its cover only to criticize someone by there actions of whom you do not know. thanks for your concern but i don’t need comments :P
The undies say it all (SUPERMAN)
I love this boy. Even though he lives in another state, I love him. 10/16/08 - Present (: <3 I love you!