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Haha if I knew what it was, maybe so…

if only…

I’ve fallen in love with someone I should’t have, and now all I can do is feel the pain and jealousy of everything he does.

He was at my house last night, in his car, near my house. We were quite the distance away so no one could hear us, especially my screams… We sat there for a little while, and we talked. It’s never the same conversations, which is good! But I can’t bring up the conversations I want to have, like my feelings, only because I know he has none for me…

It’s odd though, I’ll whip out my phone and I’ll see that I have 3-4 messages from people (majority are guys) and he always reads them. One time, he grabbed my phone from my hands and went through all my messages, reading them and saying “You talk to a lot of guys”. He continued to look through it. He then asked why I didn’t have a password on my phone and I said because I don’t have anything to hide. I wanted to continue saying ” I don’t have anything to hide from you…” but I have to keep my words to a minimum.

As the night went on last night, I went down on him and because it’s one of the things I do best, I can tease the hell out of him. I know he LOVES it! While I was down there, he’d feel all over my body, my curves, everything. He’ll try to take my shirt and bra off to see my breasts but last night, I didn’t let him. I continued to push him away and watched his facial expression become confused, I liked that.

When I gradually started to force him away, he thought it was a joke. The whole scenario about “not wanting it but really you want it, a lot”. I shook my head, giggled and smiled. He tried touching me one last time and I held his arm so forcefully against his car seats it was hurting me. He knew by then that the scenario was what he thought it was. He began to lay me down and slowly indicate I take off my bottoms and panties, and so I did.

But the sad thing is, it won’t ever be more than just a sex relationship…

I would confess that I’ve gained huge feelings for him, but it’d be so pointless.

astrntsnst asked: i believe it's about time for you to make more posts. yeah, i just checked and it sure is.

(: oops. just been too busy! 

I can’t believe it. I’m actually going to do it.

I’m going to see Cory!!!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh! I’m so scared, yet so excited. My heart is gonna explode when I land in Perth. I wouldn’t know what to do next but I have a mission, and I plan to succeed (:

There is nothing more frustrating than wanting someone who doesn’t want you. I blame myself even though it wasn’t me. I’d hurt myself just to make him feel bad, but then there’s no point in hurting myself when he won’t come back. He won’t care. He won’t ever love me again, all because why? I don’t even know why! HE HASN’T SAID A FUCKING WORD! )’:

WPGE. <3

it’s not necessarily a strange yet shock of unexpected coincidence, but why is it that all of a sudden when i’m all alone, maybe finding some guy to fool around with yet at the same time, trying to get fucked and possibly see if a guy wants to become mine because i’m that depressed i won’t find a decent guy, he all of a sudden comes along…? we work together, he gives me lifts home, tends to think i could be more than just another girl he talks too, and may even have feelings for me, not just for the sex, but for the fact that I AM a nice girl? why did he come along all before christmas and all before new years and all before 2012 and before i was arranging plans to go see Cory? why? i don’t intend to make this sound as in it’s a bad thing, but i can’t help but think cupid and fate and god has fixed everything all in the right timing… practically!

there’s this odd yet most unimaginable feeling that i get when i’m with him and i guess just seeing his face. he’s been gone for the past 7 days without contacting me, messaging nor facebook and i can’t help but miss him terribly. i even bought him a welcome home present/s (just a little few things) *grape soda, tropical punch, a ding dong and twinkie and even a chocolate rose* i even bought big letters ” S, &, W ” and also a big red heart. his christmas present was better than that but it’s just a little something something to show i was thinking of him while he was gone…

it’s really hard to explain, yet it’s gone so fast that it feels like i’ve been with him forever. we feel so comfortable around each other, it’s insane of how i come to realize that two people can actually fall in love so quickly. judge me if you must, yet no-one reallys actually does know me and therefor you just judged a book by its cover only to criticize someone by there actions of whom you do not know. thanks for your concern but i don’t need comments :P

Imagine this life if everything we thought of was REAL. The tooth fairy. Santa Claus. Dragons. Fairies. Wizards. Witches. Ghosts. Demons. Magic. Dreams. Imagination. Elf’s. Goblins. Trolls. Dinosaurs. Just imagine whenever you lost a tooth, you see the tooth fairy. Christmas is around the corner, and Santa really does visit everyone in only hours of the night. Dragons and fairies lived in our amazon forest and majestical places. Hogwarts was really a witchcraft and wizardry school for people who are born that way. Macbeth was a true story and witches really did have powers too. All the ghosts stories from people we hear today were true and maybe we’d seen more of them everyday. Demons haunted the people who deserved it “Osama Binladin”. If everything we wanted to wish for came true with a flick of a wand, that magic would change the world. Every single dream came true all day, everyday. You imagined everything you possibly could and POOF, it’s right in front of your eyes. Elf’s like in Zelda and obviously Santa’s helpers really did help and had those cute but funny ears. That every story book with a goblin to give the story a twist was actually true and they lived in strange places or even in banks “Harry Potter”. And maybe even trolls. Under every bridge on this planet, there lived a troll. What if you stepped outside and a dinosaur was eating your plants, maybe trying to eat another dinosaur. Just imagine that.

Should I tell him?

I’m afraid to tell my new man about my embarrassing yet sad sex secret. It’s nothing horrible like I’m a cheater, or I’m addicted to porn and/or sex toys… I just wanna get it off my chest, yet I’m still just worried he’ll laugh at me or not take it seriously.

How do I tell him that “NO guy has EVER made me reach an orgasm yet” ): ???